She knew it.
But she didn't know him.
She'd been thinking of him all day, all week. She finally admitted to herself that even before the scarf, she had thought about him. Fleeting thoughts, not like she thought of him now. Elbow on desk, chin cupped in her raised arm, fingers tapping the counter. It was a slow day that gave her too much time to indulge in her addictive thoughts.
She had to know more about him. What about the guy at the strip club and bar? No time for that now. No time to ponder her own unfulfilled life. She smiled at the much appreciated distraction.
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Brone Barnheart Apt. 223
I was on the sidewalk, trying to light a cigarette. It was raining, of course. After one to many failed attempts, I gave up and let it just hang there. I was sucking on nothing. I had a few buck and nothing to do. My feet immediately took me in the direction of the bar. As I walked on I glanced across the street and noticed that my woman in red was not behind the counter, a guy this time. I sighed. As the bar windows came into view I spit out the unlit cigarette. My hand on the door I saw the red scarf on the coat hanger. “Heh.” There she was at the bar, beautiful and mysterious, my kind of woman. I walked in, sat down on her right and ordered a red Russian. Luckily I was not carded. She didn’t talk much, and always wore a poker player’s face. It was hard work to learn even the slightest detail about her. As the day turned to night, I learned some of her dislikes; idleness, delay, boredom. She hid her emotions, but I saw something very familiar in her eyes, trouble. I like trouble. Her body language was screaming out something to me too. It looked like the night was about to get interesting. I grinned. I looked past her and I saw…no…it couldn’t be! My smile evaporated. I was paralyzed in my chair. Outside the bar, it was….it was Meredith. Was I dreaming? Another Nightmare? I rubbed my eyes and looked again, just in time to catch the wisps of her hair leaving the window view. She was heading into town, shit. She was the one who had killed my heart all those years ago. There was only one reason she was hunting me down now.
“I….I have to go.” I said lamely. I quickly got up and left the bar. Meredith was nowhere to be seen. I chanced a look back inside. Was she, was she crying? No time to worry about her now. I called Seebach.
“Michael, what the hell. Give me my ID."
"I need it much more than you idiot. Don't think you can trade me a hundred bucks for it."
"Unbelievable huh? but that's not important, of course I'm calling you for a reason. So listen carefully, because I'm serious about it."
“I think I saw Meredith.”
He said something about meeting, but I already knew this was my problem. I went back into my apartment and laid down. Looks like my dreams were catching up to me, but how was it going to end? Sleep took me and there she was, standing pretty with a pistol.
Finale a la prologue
What does the time spent here represent? Have I learned anything? There are hundreds of other towns, cities, neighborhoods which I have and will infiltrate, will it make a difference?
Are there aliens? How do they view someone like me? They probably don't. They just need to take one look at a place like this and say, "nothing good comes from earth."
Do I really care about justice? All I seem to participate in is sneaking about, learning other peoples business. If I learn enough about a person, does that make it ok to report all the things that they do? Does justice only apply to those caught in the act?
My brain used to use a wider vocabulary. I'm far too focused on philosophy nowadays. Its only been a week? One week. Seven days ago I wondered about why people blink. Not exactly philosophical, but I still have too many erroneous thoughts. When was the last time I wrote down the things I have seen? I remember it, but I don't feel like i'm working.
"Come here, Baron."
The tabby whom had been staying in my apartment jumped from the floor onto my hunched knees. He was obviously fine with living with anyone who did not try to eat him or pelt him with stones. Petting his head, I decide I should at least come up with some lessons about life or something...
Lesson 1.
Humans were meant to work and sweat to earn a living. Those that try to get rich quick, or live at the expense of others, all get divine retribution somewhere along the line. That's the lesson. Unfortunately, we quickly forget the lessons we've learn. Then we have to learn them all over again.
I wander over to my stacks of documents and begin placing them in alphabetical order in their cardboard boxes.
Lesson 2.
"Survival of the fittest" is the law of nature. We deceive, or we are deceived. Thus, we flourish, or perish. Nothing good ever happened to me when I trusted others. That...is the lesson.
I desperately reach behind my wall of monitors and unplug each in succession.
Lesson 3.
Lesson, Lesson: If you see a stranger, follow him.
I walk over to my miniature fridgerator and open the door.
Lesson 4.
And what was the real lesson? Don't leave things in the fridge.
I close it and walk towards the window. Throwing aside the shutters, its suprisingly sunny outside. Perfect timing.
Clunk Clunk Clunk.
"Brone," I catch my breath as soon as I say the name and continually stroke the cat's head which is starved for affection.
The footsteps stop. I'm looking out the window at nothing much.
"Don't go."
Am I breaking my promise? Some promises are meant to be broken, in fact, most of them are. It doesn't matter, the footsteps continue down the hallway. What am I doing? Whatever was holding our partnership together was only such a small thing.
Meredith. Someone impossible to keep track of. Not that he was particularly fond of the idea of meeting her, but he still needed to find her. I help him, he helps me, whatever happens from that moment I will close my eyes and look away.
Was I clinging onto my worker like he was my personal bodyguard for life? Or did I actually think there was some kind of friendship that I could hold onto, no matter how many times my name changed? I could just have easily avoided this city entirely, why ever bother coming here? He would be fine either way with not finding her--perhaps for a couple of more years.
"Nana, hachi, kyû, konnichi wa to you."
"Are you sure you’re looking for her?"
"Ichi, zero, ichi, ichi, sayonara."
"Or are you just wasting time?"
...A siren was wailing outside, an ambulance. How rare. Few violences are reported here.
When you and I first met, you told me something. You said that you had died once. That you had seen death. Why can't you just let it go? Forget the past. Is it that hard?
What was my real name again? Just some letter, foreign scripture. Does it matter? I don't have time for such trivial things.
"I'm going to do my job," I stated simply. I walked out my door and left it wide open. I was moving at my pace towards where I told him she would be.
The graveyard was scarier exposed to full sunshine than at night. Gravestones with hundreds of my assumed names were everywhere, though I didn't see Mr. Barnheart's.
Brone leaned against a tall headstone holding a lit cigarette.
"..."
What is there to talk about? I hunched down next to him.
"Ever heard this story. There was once a tiger-striped cat. This cat died a million deaths, revived and lived a million lives. And he was owned by various people who he didn't really care for. The cat wasn't afraid to die. Then one day, the cat became a stray cat, which meant he was free. He met a white female cat and the two of them spent their days together happily. Well, years passed and the white cat grew weak and died of old age. The tiger-striped cat cried a million times and then he died too. Except this time he didn't come back to life."
"Hm. Thats a nice story."
"I hate that story."
"Ah?"
"I never liked cats, you know that."
"Oh yeah, thats right...Brone."
"Yeah?"
"I just want to ask you one thing."
"Whats that?"
"Is there something you need to do for her?"
"She's dead. There's nothing I can do for her now."
"Ah. Let's get the hell out of here shall we?"
We both walk towards the direction of Washington Heights apartment complex at a casual stride. I could still hear the sirens from the ambulance wailing. Like I said, nothing good comes from earth.
"Hey," Brone suddenly speaks, "how are men and women different?"
"Hmm...I think women are hiding more vital secrets than men are."
"But there are women who aren't feminine."
"And men who aren't masculine"
"What about those that aren't usually feminine but show that side of themselves in some chance circumstances? I like that."
"Really?"
"I'm not talking about her."
"Who then?"
"Whatever, but betrayal may come easy to women, but men live by iron codes of honor."
"You believe that?"
"I'm trying to. Real hard."
Maybe it's that girl in the red dress who'se trying to kill us?
*****
Some time later...
"So, what's the deal with this job again?"
"I briefed you earlier, Brone."
"Yeah, I wasn't really listening."
"...An ex-CIA operative Decker has stolen a large amount of explosives and is planning to sell them by highest bidder in an auction today."
"Well I happen to be in the bar nearby, so relax."
"Didn't you have a hangover?"
"Yeah. I'm making a prairie oyster. Just need an egg--"
"Please stop drinking those, you'll die."
"...Some asshole just spilled my egg. I needed that egg. I can't do any crap like this, I'm going after some tail."
"Since when is it a bounty hunter's job to chase after a women's ass instead of money?"
"Why the heck is an ex-CIA agent doing such high grade illegal activity anyways?"
"He was kicked out. When angels are forced out of heaven, they become devils. Don't you agree?"
"I don't know and I have no opinion. Besides, this place is actually crawling with bounty hunters, they all know about Decker, and I have a hangover the size of Neptune."
"You're useless, why do we work well together?"
"You're tense, I'm calm. You apply excessive force and I control that force through fluid motion. So that means relaxing the whole body so it can react instantly without resistance, you know, without thought."
"Well, be careful. Anything could happen. It could blow sky high when it hits."
"Kinda makes it interesting."
*****
What is going on in this world? Though you're alive, darkness looms only inches away. A world where any move you make could be a dangerous mistake. So, we will step away from the mainstream and live like vagabonds and common dropouts. A psychedelic rhapsody for someone just like you.
Don't you wanna hang out and waste your life with us?
*****
CHAPTER: MICHAEL SEEBACH - THE END
That went well I guess. Well enough anyway. There is nothing i find more irritating than an over confident son of a bitch who thinks he owns you. Who does he think he is? I know I'll take the job. Its no secret that i need the money, but he just thought he was king of the world and I would take any offer he was going to make. Fuck him. I don't even wanna think abut this anymore.
I'm going to go talk to Coley. She might have something useful to say about this. I outta get her a bottle of something before i show up unannounced. She doesn't really like surprise visits. I'd rather not risk her rage of sobriety.
I think I'll get her wine. Wine that matches her dress.
I wish I kept things in the apartment. I'm exactly in the mood to walk to the sore to get some wine.
Huh... Its that awkward girl. Why would you walk in the street in this neighborhood. Even an ice cream truck is to be feared around here.....
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